Wake up and smell the coffee, your life is not that bad!

I’ve been in a fog the past couple of weeks, I think post Christmas gets most people. I have got other dangerous things going on in that old mind of mine, however all in all it’s that time of year where things can just easily get on top of me and make me feel like I can not cope.

In doing my morning routine of getting up, feeding various children, packing the hubster off to work and sending the boys upstairs to brush teeth etc, I get 10 minutes to check emails, Facebook, twitter and the like. This morning on Facebook there was the usual chit chat on the time line, a long with a load of rubbish that I normally flick straight past. Then this one youtube video caught my eye. It was a person who doesn’t normally put up videos, and people had been commenting on it, so I thought it mustn’t be a virus like they have been known to be.

I click, I watched, I cried.

This man, this awe inspiring man just saw life in the correct way. And yes I do believe there is a correct way to view life and I don’t have proof to back it up, it’s just the correct way, which is having a positive outlook on life regardless of what it is life throws at you.

I leave the video with you to watch. Please tell me what you think of it and him as I just feel this amazing man needs to publicity.


2011 for me!

Well what can I say 2011 has been up there as a monumental year for me.

I’ll go through month by month explaining my amazing year!

January – Saved my marriage, after 6 months our therapist told us we no longer needed, and do you know what near 12 months on she was right!

February – I started this blog, what a turning point in my life this was and it all started with this post! This blog has been an escape and a half for me, I have made some lovely friends and it has really provided me with the strength to believe in my own writing ability. So many people who I have up most respect for have complimented my writing and told me that they are thinking of writing a blog because of little old me. Well 1 – just do it if you have the need to write then do it, 2 – You’re bound to be better than me 3 – sent a link to your blog once you’ve set it up!

March – I started writing for Brew Drinking Thinkings  , what an experience these guys and gals have taught me. I started by writing as their children’s activity writer. I was so proud of my first publication , I think I triple checked every 10 minutes to make sure it was still there.

April – We moved into our newest house. I can say it’s been the most welcoming house thus far. There is a community to this road, night we moved in we had neighbours popping round with beers. We had a BBQ with 4 families within a week and it’s just been lovely. The boys love how close we are to the swings, the fact that R can see the swings from his bedroom made his day!

May – I received my first ever item to review, granted it was only washing liquid, however it meant I had made an impact somewhere in the blogging world. I have done a handful since and as much I don’t want to be a sell out, the odd DVD, Children’s toy etc are always fun to review!

June– I had a bit of a mental and worried that I was no longer going to get any more childminded children so decided to apply to University. Ha what a joke hey! I also went to my first ever Glastonbury, amazing, ending the very muddy but very fun festival moshing like a lunatic to Queen’s of the Stone Age, felt like a Me and not  a Mum, a treasured memory!

July– I wrote this post , and began my drastic life plan change. I finally decided I could not live my life just getting bigger and more and more unhappy! So I joined Weight Watchers and Bodyfit Bootcamp with Lixwall and what can I say they changed my life.

August – We experience the Isle of Man, Wow what a place. I can not explain in words what the place is like, however it was like we had been had been sent back in time to a lovely innocent world. Trains, horse-drawn trams the works I can not recommend a visit there more. I also had an interview for University of which shockingly ended with me getting a place.

September – I closed down my business and went to university like a big girl. T’was the single scariest thing of my life. Attending University as a mature student is something I would both recommended and put off in the same sentence. However here is to the next 3 years or so.

October – We had a magical time at Disneyland, seeing both my boys enjoy themselves so much is enough to put a smile on any parent’s face. G’s highlight was taking him on his very first upside down roller coaster, not sure he feels the same way but was good to spend time with just him. R’s by far was watching his face meet Woody it was a complete picture, I hope it is as treasured to him as it is to the rest of our family. On a selfish note I got to meet Jack and Sally from ‘The Nightmare Before Christmas’, oh my lord I turned into a child again and ran after them like a giddy kid!

November – I always love November as it is another year older as a mother for me. However my highlight for this year had to be watching G be picked to lay the wreath on Remembrance Sunday. I wept as he did it, I was ever should the proud mother and I love him to death. Also Big Sis told me she had met someone, made the year.

December – Well what a December, Christmas is always magical in this house being 1 of so many children it’s a family time and a half. However highlight had to go to getting a first in my first assignment. I also had my log stove fitted making for a wonderful atmosphere in our house.

A lot has changed in our little family in 12 months, some bad but mainly good and for me it has been a year to treasure. I plan to focus on the good and enter 2012 with my head held high and enjoy 2012 whole heartily.

Happy New Year Readers and all the best


5 Years from now!

I think it is good to dream. If we didn’t dream of bigger and better things where would we be?

So 5 years time would be Christmas 2016. My boys will be 12 and 7 and I will have hopefully have been married for 10 years.

Of course I want to still be happily married and for all 4 of us to be in perfect health (note how I said 4, that’s no more babies from me thank you).

Selfishly I would like to have qualified from University with as high a grade as I put the effort in for. Also to have gained a place on a good PGCE course which as well I would have completed with a good grade. Then to be within the first year working in a good localish school. As much as I realise it is hard to get a job within my local area and I know there is the possibly of travel, I don’t want to have to travel too far!

I would like the extension on our house to be in the pipeline if not already have started. To have 2 cars that actually work and are reliable. That we can afford a descent holiday aboard once a year.

I also hope that hubster is happy within his job and has been able to rise the ranks as I know he is capable of doing.

So go on you dream, dream high and dream often.

A weight update!

So If you can remember a few months back I posted a naked picture of myself, it was this picture that made me really want to lose weight and I knew if I posted it on here then I would have to do something about it.

So we are 9 weeks down the line and I have lost just shy of a stone and as this week’s silent sunday shows I really am doing well.

I still have about 18.5lb to go until I am at goal, however for the first time in a long time I feel in control, It is up to me if I eat that biscuit or have more potatoes on my plate.

What I have to say if anyone is unhappy with their weight, just do it go for it. Set yourself achievable goals and before you know it you will a dress size smaller and that will taste nicer than any slice of cake you’ll ever eat.

100 Word Challenge #week4

All the onlooker saw was a couple sat on picnic blanket beside the riverside, the hamper open, plates half-finished, one empty glass, one full!

The ripple of the water, the lilt of soft mood music from a far, as the stars, candles and firefly’s reflected off the water, as she made her announcement, they would at long last have their own brood.

The pair they sat there arm in arm and quietly sobbed tears of joy, it was to be assured that they would remember this evening with joy and nothing untoward, but merely a positive evocative of the past.

Read more interesting creative pieces here!



Over that Rainbow

Following on from my system post, I want to show you all how I have changed my life around and proven to everyone and most importantly myself I am worth something.

Yes everyone gets dealt a shitty hand of cards at some point in your life! It just happened that mine came in adolescent when I my hormones couldn’t really handle what was going on around me, and for a little while I did go off the rails slightly. Not to the extreme but I be would lying if I didn’t admit to the following: Drinking excessively, smoking 40 a day, experimenting in low lower cased drugs, failed high school and had a run in with the law.

However I did realise that the only person who was going to push me through life was only ever going to be myself. So I forced my to go back to school, I worked 2 jobs and got myself a place a university, why I didn’t go is explained here.

At 18 I met this bloke who made me laugh, we got on, had similar outlooks on life and very quickly and unplanned we fell pregnant with our eldest G. This was my true wake up call, I didn’t have myself to push through life anymore I had to make a success for my child’s sake.

That’s what we did, both hubster and I worked hard and got the deposit for our first house. I was just turning 20 and it was hard work having to pay proper bills and still make sure that there was money in the bank account at the end of every month in order to feed ourselves, baring in mind we both only work in a restaurant it wasn’t the easiest of tasks, however we did it and managed to save enough to pay for our wedding.

We then went on to buy our first home as a family, an achievement I will take to the ground that at the age of 20 I managed to buy a home, something which in this day and age is becoming increasingly more difficult.

Since then we have bought another house, managed to still see a lot of the world, have another child, run a car we did have 2 but we took the choice to go down to one, and still have some luxuries in life. I have also managed to set up a business which is going from strength to strength.

I don’t feel like I have had a bad life or that it owe’s me anything. Anything bad that happened to me, which may I add is minimal compared to what some people get put through, I use them to my advantage. It has made me a stronger person.

I love my life, I have a husband who granted isn’t perfect he has done his fair share of silly things, but is perfect to me and has stuck with me through any silly episodes I have put him through and I, couldn’t imagine living this life or bringing up children with anyone other than him. I have been blessed with 2 gorgeous boys who manage to amaze me daily with even the smallest of things, from learning to talk to making me a gorgeous handmade card. I have a sister who is more like my best friend, she is there for me thick and thin. True friends who has ridden my road with me, taken me for the opinionated, outspoken, honest and loyal friend that I am. I have my husband’s family who from day one have taken me in and treated me as their own showing me what true parents are.

So all in all you make your own life, I have chosen not to wallow in my past and look to a brighter future.