2011 for me!

Well what can I say 2011 has been up there as a monumental year for me.

I’ll go through month by month explaining my amazing year!

January – Saved my marriage, after 6 months our therapist told us we no longer needed, and do you know what near 12 months on she was right!

February – I started this blog, what a turning point in my life this was and it all started with this post! This blog has been an escape and a half for me, I have made some lovely friends and it has really provided me with the strength to believe in my own writing ability. So many people who I have up most respect for have complimented my writing and told me that they are thinking of writing a blog because of little old me. Well 1 – just do it if you have the need to write then do it, 2 – You’re bound to be better than me 3 – sent a link to your blog once you’ve set it up!

March – I started writing for Brew Drinking Thinkings  , what an experience these guys and gals have taught me. I started by writing as their children’s activity writer. I was so proud of my first publication , I think I triple checked every 10 minutes to make sure it was still there.

April – We moved into our newest house. I can say it’s been the most welcoming house thus far. There is a community to this road, night we moved in we had neighbours popping round with beers. We had a BBQ with 4 families within a week and it’s just been lovely. The boys love how close we are to the swings, the fact that R can see the swings from his bedroom made his day!

May – I received my first ever item to review, granted it was only washing liquid, however it meant I had made an impact somewhere in the blogging world. I have done a handful since and as much I don’t want to be a sell out, the odd DVD, Children’s toy etc are always fun to review!

June– I had a bit of a mental and worried that I was no longer going to get any more childminded children so decided to apply to University. Ha what a joke hey! I also went to my first ever Glastonbury, amazing, ending the very muddy but very fun festival moshing like a lunatic to Queen’s of the Stone Age, felt like a Me and not  a Mum, a treasured memory!

July– I wrote this post , and began my drastic life plan change. I finally decided I could not live my life just getting bigger and more and more unhappy! So I joined Weight Watchers and Bodyfit Bootcamp with Lixwall and what can I say they changed my life.

August – We experience the Isle of Man, Wow what a place. I can not explain in words what the place is like, however it was like we had been had been sent back in time to a lovely innocent world. Trains, horse-drawn trams the works I can not recommend a visit there more. I also had an interview for University of which shockingly ended with me getting a place.

September – I closed down my business and went to university like a big girl. T’was the single scariest thing of my life. Attending University as a mature student is something I would both recommended and put off in the same sentence. However here is to the next 3 years or so.

October – We had a magical time at Disneyland, seeing both my boys enjoy themselves so much is enough to put a smile on any parent’s face. G’s highlight was taking him on his very first upside down roller coaster, not sure he feels the same way but was good to spend time with just him. R’s by far was watching his face meet Woody it was a complete picture, I hope it is as treasured to him as it is to the rest of our family. On a selfish note I got to meet Jack and Sally from ‘The Nightmare Before Christmas’, oh my lord I turned into a child again and ran after them like a giddy kid!

November – I always love November as it is another year older as a mother for me. However my highlight for this year had to be watching G be picked to lay the wreath on Remembrance Sunday. I wept as he did it, I was ever should the proud mother and I love him to death. Also Big Sis told me she had met someone, made the year.

December – Well what a December, Christmas is always magical in this house being 1 of so many children it’s a family time and a half. However highlight had to go to getting a first in my first assignment. I also had my log stove fitted making for a wonderful atmosphere in our house.

A lot has changed in our little family in 12 months, some bad but mainly good and for me it has been a year to treasure. I plan to focus on the good and enter 2012 with my head held high and enjoy 2012 whole heartily.

Happy New Year Readers and all the best

xxx

Why seriously?

Do you know a person that is lovely? Will bend over backwards for you at all time, has the most pleasant manner! We all know don’t we?

So why is that it these people that always appeared to be shit on the most in life? I grew up with a girl and her lovely family who unfortunately all the girls died, the eldest being 18 years old. Then a few years later the mum died of cancer. It’s just shit, they were lovely wouldn’t hurt a soul, I ran the marathon in Marian’s memory, It has been over 10 years since she past, but I still miss her and think of her often.

More up to date, I have a new friend, when I say new we have been friendly for the past 2 years. We became friendly through our children. Last year her and her family laid to rest the head of their family. It tore them apart, they had to build back from the bottom, and just as they begin to move forward they find out that the reason the elder died the mum now has. It tore my heart out my chest, and it’s not even my mum. I stood there and watched the life drain from my friends eyes. Everything had started to rebuild. The foundations had been laid bare, why is it that they appeared they have built it on marsh land.

 

Well screw you then!

So we fell out, you crushed me and made me feel like shit. You ignored my son when going into hospital, then saw your arse because you weren’t invited to his party!

A few months went by, I said sorry when it wasn’t even my fault, hubster sent a letter asking to move on you had ignored him.

You had another baby we sent a card to show no spite, you asked to move on and to rebuild our friendship, we agreed

Since then though nothing, I have tried to organise times to meet up however you don’t reply, I see you in the park, you pretty much brush me off and what nothing to do with me.

You hurt me in the first place, you lied to me. You broke my heart and made me feel worthless, yet you begin to do it again, all I ever tried to do was a be a good friend, help you out when and where you needed it yet you choose to brush me off and have nothing to do with me, so screw you and your family, you will regret this I will assure you, I may not know an awful lot but what I do know and I am 100% sure of is I am a good friend, I will go to the moon and back when you need me day or night, this is your loss I will not lose anymore sleep or shed another tear over this!